And here come the cramps..
nothing ever changes eh!
CD 29.. Bfn
The thing that worries me most is that I didnt cry.. Every other month I’m completely heartbroken. But today, I didnt cry. What’s wrong with me? Why have my emotions left me? I have become hardened to it all, which is very sad..
Oh forgot to mention
My 19 year old sister just announced she’s pregnant.. she’s due 11th Aug 2012.
Shopping for baby stuff...
for my brothers baby who is due in 4 weeks! Yes, it’s as heartbreaking as you could imagine. Life is hard.
BABY SCANS GET OFF MY FACEBOOK!!!!!!!
Do you seriously need to put a scan photo up every 2 weeks?
This is killing me..
and im going through it alone.
As if it would be anything else!
I was due af yesterday..
But I know this is just my body tricking me into thinking I’m actually pregnant!
The light of my life
She’s the only thing that helps ease my heart ache..
AF due tomorrow..
Spotting tonight Bang on time Cycle 14 Sad
Something u dont say to a ttc woman who can't...
OH: “just close ur eyes and sleep fgs” Well I could sleep if my head wasn’t filled with so much crap every waking minute.. I could sleep if I wasn’t constantly trying to think of other things that just MIGHT help us conceive.. Oh and I could sleep if my fucking heart wasn’t breaking in two!
This is around the time I start to get loopy… crying, sad, depressed, angry. Yes, I’m a proper head melt! You’ve all been warned :P
I sneezed and went *OUCH*
…yea, the pain is back. My af is due next week and the pain stared before af last month so I guess it’s on its way, again Oh on a plus note.. I’ll soon be starting a fertility study for Clear Blue, they send me ovulation/pregnany products and I send them a ttc daily journal and fmu lol Hopefully the products will come in time for next cycle! Over and out
Sore, sensitive, hot, kina itchy? nipples…..
Back from the docs..
As soon as I mentioned my symptoms to the doctor she said Endometriosis straight away.. She’s referred me to see a Gynae. Hope the appointment comes quickly! Also, she done a smear test to send off, even though she said everything looks normal.. but now im worried it will effect things? I ovulated yesterday or the evening before :/
Ok so, I’ve a doctors appointment on Wednesday.. I have some symptoms similar to Endometriosis. Really bad lower pelvic pain and lower back ache.. sharp, twisting, strong, dull aches. ALOT worse than menstrual cramping. Agony when going to the toilet, I have to hold the bottom of my stomach just to have a wee. Agony when sneezing or hard coughing. Random pain in hip (I always thought it...
CD12.. Positive opk
Dtd CD9 & lastnight (cd11).. and will do it for the next 3 nights!
Merry Christmas my Tumblr ladies!
You are all like diamonds in the dark sky.. Don’t ever think otherwise xx
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notbornwithenoughmiddlefingers: What makes you better than me? Why do you deserve to be a mother and I do not? Why do I have to suffer for years trying to have children just to fail and you can “accidentally” have a few? I’m skipping the suffering this year and completely skipping today and tomorrow I don’t care anymore I… This is what this damn hateful journey does to women!!...
If anyone is listening up there...
Please lift this dark cloud from above my head.
Anyone ever feel...
like as each cycle passes a bit of you passes also? Its like as each month gones on I feel less and less like me. My personality isn’t the same anymore. :(
Reblog if 2011 was a rough year for you too.
We started ttc this month last year.. who knew it would have been the saddest year of my life, not the happiest.
Tested this morning (12DPO) with a frer.. massive stark white bfn To make matters worse I had a dream that I woke up and tested and it was bfp.. there were two pink crossed lines and i ran into dp to tell him with crackers in my hand. So then I woke up from the dream and tested.. it was 5:33am.. negative. I threw the test in the bin.. and dp knew i was testing this morning.. he hasn’t...
Slightly darker when I wipe again..
So.. i’ll get this for the next couple of days and then af. Same ol same ol.. I’m an idiot.
So far today..
no spotting! Will see what tonight/tomorrow brings. (I’m actually 10dpo doh)
It was very light pinky when I wiped tonight. Same ol vicious cycle happening once again! For the next couple of days I will say one minute, oh maybe I am.. Then the next, af is def about to show her ugly ugly ugly stupid effin face! :@ And then it does. Is it going to be like this forever? Until im old and grey? Even when im going through the menopause ill still have hope.. This isnt a nice...
Tiny bit of cramping this morning but I’m really not feeling positive today.. I keep trying to lift my spirits but I just can’t, I feel like I’m being an idiot for thinking that this is our month. Why shouldn’t it be???? Why can’t it be me who’s shouting my BFP from the rooftops???? That feeling of ‘it’ll never happen’ just keeps creeping...